When I began this blog, I wrote out goals. One of the goals was to get over the fear of my parents. To be brave in front of them especially when I was talking about subjects I knew they disapproved of and not to cry and run away when I didn’t get the answer I was looking for. I may have said this before, but it was not recognizable to me that it was a fear until I had actually written that out.
Look at me now. I’m going to San Diego for the summer for an internship. Though they don’t show it very well, I know my parents are proud of me. I was brave enough to move forward with something I knew I needed to do whether they liked it or not. They might not need it, but I do.
I feel like another part of being brave is when you have to choose. You’re brave enough to let something go, or to suffer consequences. I feel that pressure on me now as I write this because I’ve been working down to the wire on a couple of writing assignments. Do I choose to turn one in not as up to par as I’d like it to be in order to work harder on another or some other project due at a later time? Oh, finals. I can be brave at take a grade hit…but should I? Am I brave enough to admit that I did slack? Am I? Yup.
So, here goes. Here’s to whatever you need to be brave for. Because you can do this. It’s hard, yes, but sometimes it’s necessary. Be it standing up to someone for what you feel is right, or admitting you’re wrong, you can be brave.
A hidden challenge for me this semester is managing to get all my work done in a timely manner. I thought I was all on top of it, but as this week began, it slowly dawned on me that I don’t have as much time as I originally had imagined. This is all thanks to ASUs scheduling change.
But how do I remedy this? I’d prefer not to lose sleep over projects and assignments. However, naps will be out of the question. It’s time to buckle down during the time I have set aside for naps. It’s time to make lists outside of the previously mentioned to do list to get as much done in a day as possible. It’s time for lots of coffee, water, and eating well.
But, because I live on camus, it is also time to start packing up my belongings and moving back home. There lies another hidden challenge: balancing moving out with finals, especially when a majority of my finals happen before finals. Oh, the challenges of an art student.
In the last prompt, I touched on the fact that I cannot read unless all my work is done, but I don’t feel like I can work well unless my room is clean. I believe this is a type of system that keeps me going in life. Another system I can think of that I have is my homework system.
I have the program Things and I use it to make lists for each class. At the beginning of the semester, I take the syllabi from each class and enter in all the due dates for assignments, readings, projects and critiques. I have it set up so that each assignment, etc. appears on my to do list as urgent three days before it is actually due. If needed, I make duplicates of the task to let myself know I need to be working on it so-and-so far in advance.
Heh, um….so, yes, this is my Things right now. I have a lot of reading to catch up on. But here is a good example of what I mean by repeating tasks. I put them there so I know I need to work on it every day until the day before the task is due. And then I can check it off for the day when I’ve done a significant amount.
You can also see off to the side how I’m using the Active Projects as my classes and then I can put each task into a designated class to categorize them.
But, yes. That is my system to get things done.
Reading is something that can be difficult for me. Sometimes I’m really into it, others I’m not. Don’t get me wrong, I love books and to read. I just have a difficult time doing it if I’m working on a lot of things. Many of my friends read to wind down and escape. I can’t read unless I have nothing else to be working on. It’s easier for me to read for school than it is for pleasure. I tried to overcome this by getting a Kindle.
At first, I was doing great. I read the first two Hunger Games books on it (technically, those are the last things I read but because the movie just came out, I’d rather not discuss it all here, but I loved it). I’m currently on the third, but very stuck. I’m just not motivated to pick it up again.
I think I’m in need of a schedule change and instead of procrastinating, or aimlessly looking at things online, I ought to take the time to read for at least 30 minutes.
It’s interesting…in order to function well, I need a clean space, and in order to read, I need all my work to be finished.
Do you save images off the internet? I rarely do now. I used to do it all the time. Oh, maybe I want to look at this again. Maybe I’ll use this somewhere. There was a time I had a lot of the LolCat Meme images on my computer or just those where an animal is captioned.
I still giggle at this.
But that was back when I had nothing better to do on my laptop. I later realize all these saved images where just taking up space. I never looked at them, so why keep them?
The other thing about saving images to your computer is that you don’t always remember where you got it from. What if you want to use it and you don’t have the source? That could get you into trouble, right?
However, there is a neat tool out there called Google Search by Image. If you have an image on a website and no source is listed, you can click and drag the image to the search box and it will tell you where on the internet you can find it. I just did it with the above image, even though it was saved onto my computer:
So, with the use of this type of very useful search, one is able to easily link back to the image source.
This one is difficult. Do I talk about my brother and how he brought video games into a family of three girls? Do I talk about mind games played in school to try to get around a task? Do I talk about the homeschool teen group I was involved in where we had a monthly game night? Do I talk about how I crawled around on my hands and knees for a better part of my childhood because I liked to pretend I was an animal?
I’m not much of a sports fan. Never really have been. I remember going over to friends houses and seeing them be excited about a certain team. I’d then adopt that same excitement about the team, but then would drop it because I found no point in it later. My Dad has always watched games on TV. Oftentimes when I would walk into the room, he would shout, “FOOTBALL!” just to make me embarrassed.
My sport was bowling. After trying tennis, horseback riding and even fencing, I decided that I liked bowling the best. I have my own ball, shoes, special wrist brace…yeah. I even worked at the bowling alley for a while. I haven’t bowled much since leaving for college, though.
Going back to watching sports, my family and I used to go to baseball games sort of frequently. It wasn’t much fun for me. Luckily, I discovered knitting socks and when we’d go to the games, I’d bring along my sock knitting. I did get a lot done during the game and everyone was happy.
This reminds me of Stich and Pitch, from where I sort of got the inspiration to take my knitting to the baseball games. Basically, the National Needlearts Association created Stitch and Pitch to bring together baseball fans and knitters, crocheters and embroiderers. They schedule events at certain games where these people meet up to craft while watching the game. Maybe if I was more into the sport, I’d go, but for now, I just take it with me when I do.
Music is everywhere. It’s playing in restaurants, stores, in the car…almost everywhere we go there is music. Even while observing people on campus one notices that most have earbuds in or headphones on, music piping into their heads. What are they blocking out? I used to do that as a teenager. I’d want to block out people talking in the car, my brother yapping on and annoying me, or just for some noise to get me through whatever was going on. But now, I haven’t really listened to music unless I’m working in the studio (even then, it’s usually podcasts) or if I’m in the car. Part of me does wish I listened to music more, but the other part of me wants to be alert to everything going on around me, who is talking to me when, nature sounds and the like. (Honestly, part of it is that my music library is somewhat unorganized and when I have the chance I would like to organize it better so that I can listen to music without skipping songs so much.)
I had the motivation to begin writing this post as I was on Skype with my (boy)friend and he was listening to music as he was writing a paper. He was listening to The Follow Through by Blue October off of their new album, Any Man in America. Now, Blue October is one of my most favorite bands (I saw them twice this past year alone). Maybe it’s because their songs evoke certain emotions in me. After all, I’ve turned to their music through relationships, heartaches, depression, happiness…you name it. It lead me to think about how art can do the same thing. It can make you uncomfortable, comforted, happy, sad, etc. Music is art in its own right, of course. As I’m thinking about all this in my writing, how interesting would it be to take a band, their albums, and make art based off of the music. I know people do it all the time for drawings and paintings…but what about Fiber Art?
With that thought, I’ll leave you with a bit of Blue October.